Day 5 – Civil Affairs Office, again….

Today started off perfect!!  Miss Mollie or XiuXiu as we are calling her, was happy and wonderful and eating and drinking and it really seemed like we had turn a corner……then

About an hour after waking up, the wave of sadness hit again.

She was inconsolable.  It was heartbreaking to watch…..again.

She will only go to Jeremy and wants nothing to do with me.

I understand this, I expected this.  But it doesn’t make it easier.

Mollie is precious though.  When we saw her this morning, just a bit of her personality came through and she is precious.

Jeremy is in love with his new daughter.

Since we were right smack dab in the middle of a breakdown, we had to leave to go back to the Civil Affairs office to finalize the papers for Mollie’s passport.  Guess what I forgot…..the paperwork!!

I had grabbed everything else under the sun, but not the packet from Lifeline that said Provincial paperwork!!

Good news….we didn’t need anything out of it!!  Our guide had gotten everything out yesterday!!

Thank you Lord for watching out for me!!  He is faithful in the big things and small.

Remind me later that I said that because I will probably need to be reminded often of that fact.  🙂

At the Civil Affairs office, we signed our names about 100 times and placed a red thumbprint on top of them.

We were asked several questions, why do we want to adopt from China?  Do we know about Molllie’s special need?

And the last, probably most important question, do we want to adopt Mollie??

They ask you this after you’ve had your child for 24 hours.  Although she is grieving hard and cries 80% of our day, I can not imagine telling them no.  We love this girl.  She’s our daughter.  She’s a sister.

I cried when I answered that question earlier today and I’m crying again tonight as I remember it.

Mollie was asleep almost the whole time we were there.  She is a trooper.

This afternoon we went to a Children’s Park they have in Taiyuan with our friends Hubert and Vicki Keller.  It was nice, but not a ton for grieving children to do!

We ate lunch at KFC and that was an adventure just telling them what we wanted to order!!

No one, and I repeat, no one in Taiyuan speaks English!!  And there’s 4 million people!!

Ok, that’s probably an exaggeration, but it truly felt that way today.

We got back to the hotel and the breakdown started again.  Jeremy took her in the kid’s room for over 2 hours and this poor girl just cried and cried.  She keeps saying Mama Aiuyuan.  (That’s phonetically spelled out, so I’m sure it’s incorrect!!)

She loved her foster grandma deeply.  That I am sure.  I do not speak Chinese, but I can understand that phrase.

She was loved deeply.  That I am still so grateful for.  This girl is devastated.  It breaks my heart to think about.

Jeremy said he and Mollie had a few moments.  I took that to mean, God moments.

He talked to her, sang to her, held her, and just loved on her.

He told her what a beautiful girl she is and how much she is loved.

What a great Dad.  He has been the backbone of this trip and I think I’m more in love with this man now than the day we met.

When Jeremy came back in the room, she went to Kennedy.

Kennedy….let me tell you something about this girl…..she is fabulous!!!

Kennedy held Mollie and rocked her and stroked her back saying everything will be ok.

I came over to see if I could help, and Kennedy was crying.

I asked her why and she told me she felt so sorry for Mollie.  That she gets why Mollie is having such a hard time.

She’s lost everything.

Breaks my heart again as I remember today.  My precious daughter’s sitting together in a chair….one consoling the other one and knowing what pain she is in.

She wasn’t upset with Mollie for crying, she just doesn’t want her to be sad.

We both played with her and Kennedy got the brilliant idea to see what might be on Netflix.

Guess what was on…..Barney!!  I haven’t watched Barney in years!!!

Guess who loved it?  As soon as Mollie saw it, she instantly stopped crying and watched about 40 minutes of it and fell asleep.

I told Kennedy, she is a genius!!

Taylor is probably not feeling great.  Taiyuan is a very smoggy city and his allergies are going crazy!!  And our sleep patterns are horrible!!!  He was in bed tonight about 6!!

He is wonderful with Mollie.  His heart breaks when he sees her cry.

When Jeremy came back in the room, he didn’t pick Mollie up quick enough and Taylor reminded him that she needs comfort right now.  Made this Mama’s heart very proud of this boy.  I know all the crying is probably driving him crazy, but he is such a great big brother.  He loves Mollie, you can see it.

He wants her to be happy and not feel this deep sorrow.

I on the other hand, am getting a cold.  I’ve sneezed about 1,000 times today and my throat is raw!  My sinus are clogged and I just don’t feel well.

As I type this I’m drinking some very hot tea.  Wish I had lemon and honey.  🙁

Continue to pray for us.

Pray for Mollie.

I found out earlier tonight that we will meet her foster family tomorrow at 2 in our hotel lobby.

I’m so happy and nervous.

I’m not going to let Mollie go with us, I know that sounds awful, but for her poor heart, I just can’t.

She must have meant so very much to her family if they are willing to meet us.

I know if they could have adopted this precious girl, they would have.

So pray for her foster family.

I know they are hurting.

I hurt for them.

Sorry for the “fuzziness” of my pics!!  I still don’t know how to use my camera apparently!!  🙂  BTW, if they are not fuzzy, they were probably taken by Taylor!!